Transcending: Bridge to Freedom ~ ^healing^

^Transcending^ ~ Bridge to Freedom*

Until we can see fully with the eyes of Love ~ we close them to see fully the Love within us

Come, ^let us walk our bridge to Freedom^

⇑Transcending⇑: Bridge to Freedom

Dares of the Uncommon Kind

⊕Healing ~ transcend and walk the bridge to Freedom⊕


⊥Above all time and space

I remember perfectly

the Love I am eternally⊥


∴This blog post was created over the course of 6 months of my healing journey…..many a month and more it was on the back burner until I felt guided and up to making an addition ∴

Healing core wounds that lay in the shadow land of our consciousness when brought to the light can be very painful to experience, however, it is only through confronting them that they are washed away. What does seem certain is that  personal transformation is inevitable as part and parcel of our evolution while here on Earth. Healing in all areas needing attention must be accomplished first. This cleaning out process allows for a newness and cohesiveness within ~ healing ~ as that which is toxic (circulating within) is made known, owned up to, taken into account how it has impacted personal life, how it has been a hindrance to that which we truly desire ~ all the ways we have been holding ourselves back from life become visible, dealt with and eventually released. I don’t claim to be an expert on this, however, I share my personal journey. I do know so much is being released on such deep levels that it  seems beyond comprehension to even fathom the depth of it all. This covers examination and purging of those toxic thoughts, emotions, actions ~ riding the curtails of prior incarnations as well as this one. The process can feel overwhelming, at least for me it did. It can seem endless, as so much is buried within the domain of our deepest recesses, that it just keeps spilling out and out. Additionally the process of healing takes time and one’s entire life must be focused on this as it is one’s life. Blessed be the ones who surrender to this∴

The bridge to freedom becomes more and more accessible with each healing. There is the larger category of healing that contains within it sub healing. Each individual experiences their own healing journey in their own way ~ for those that take ” dares of the uncommon kind” and begin the process of really finding out what is going on inside one self ∴

  Healing ~ comprising all our bodies ~ mental ~ emotional ~ physical ~ spiritual continues on until it is complete. Each individual’s process begins and ends in its own way∴

I hope this blog post serves as light and love to you. If you are going through your own healing journey, I hope in some way my journey may help heal you∴


Images are from a visit to the Brooklyn Bridge several years ago, a beach bridge in Hollywood Beach Florida, portraits of Maria Scozzari during a photo session ~ 2 images from a boudoir shoot, a Buddha portrait from our garden in our prior home, and a moonscape I created one day.


Dares of the Uncommon Kind is a reference to → what I have had to do for my healing → to take full ownership and stock of being responsible for what I was manifesting. Then, through much deep inner journeying and realizations → be the initiation for the healing.

<Darkness sets in leading eventually to clearing*

My healing journey has been filled with acute purges, moments of complete despair, of aching despondency ~ and time spent in complete and utter darkness. So overwhelming at periodic points on my healing passage that I was thrown into the depths of my own being → to look within → to seek any solace and peace that I could dig up within me → often to no avail.

I was engulfed in a time of complete darkness → nothing literally brought even an ounce of satisfaction → my entire world turned upside down whether I liked it or not → there literally was no where to turn but within → the external world and what I liked before was supremely empty and shallow → I was painstakingly aware of this and I had nowhere to turn → there was no where to go → nothing to do → only going within myself and learning to love myself. Healing myself as my primary focus exclusively.

As if barely making any progress → knowing I was certainly not on my own time table ~ my Higher Self in full reign which frustrated me even more as I had no sure ground ~ no sure footing at all. I could only submit and surrender → some days better than others → many back steps in my process that felt like horrendous set backs → a glimpse into healing and then thrown back into where I started.

→I read a couple articles on the Dark Night of the Soul by those that had gone through it. Although I can’t say 100% this is what I went through, I can say that all that was listed as what they encountered was on par with my experience. Here is a quote I found outlining its purpose ~ “The dark night of the soul is a spiritual depression, a kind of existential crisis, that requires a deep and painful dip that must be experienced before enlightenment. The “dark night of the soul” is a concept that has been discussed for millennia, typically associated with a poem written by St. John of the Cross.”←

All this began late one August afternoon, in what I thought would be a routine ear flushing → nothing routine about it → many physical issues resulted that were the most uncomfortable I have ever experienced. Although it is not fully determined to correctly say the ear flushing “caused” physical issues to surface ~ as some may have been already been present ~ however, it did have a powerful impact on many levels as a line of demarcation seemingly presenting a before and after → almost immediately as physical and otherwise issues became present → I felt sideswiped and thrown into what felt like a fiery inescapable purgatory of sorts → it was clearly evident I could only face what I was experiencing → physical distress ↑ emotions running high → my world had completely changed →  I wondered why I was even living →  it felt like an insurmountable dark wall encasing me on all sides → I felt and thought things I never had before  → an ocean raging inside me with what seemed like every dark thought and emotion possible → I didn’t know how to deal with what had happened nor the impact of it especially on the physical level ~ death felt imminent → how could I continue on like this? ~ I didn’t want to live anymore with what I was experiencing →all the curtains closed ~ the lights went out ~ emotional mental physical spiritual anguish for months with no where to go was on the table → darkness so heavy and thick it could wipe out the Sun → nothing was the same → I felt like I was drowning and nothing literally mattered → everything was gone → I had nothing to hold onto →I felt abandoned from the Divine (a part of me knew this is not possible, but it did feel as though) → left to suffer in misery and despair → powerless and hopeless →it became a catalyst for my transformation.

Watery worlds traversed

Around 6 months have ensued now and I am not the same person. Although full healing has not come full circle yet ~ progress has accrued in my physical body → which echos a cohesive flow with my emotional/mental/spiritual bodies. I absolutely feel the dawning of a new day and I am grateful for the breakthroughs in realizations that have taken place and continue ~ my taking responsibility for the situation occurring in the first place and all my creations, as well as being an active participant in my healing. So many layers gone → ripped away → more to be removed but now with conscious love and choice attuned with it.

Many lessons I have learned → much I have had to face → much I have had to see and come to terms with → much I have had to acknowledge, release, and let go → it truly does all come down to what is being held  within will and does manifest as an outward expression. This knowledge is a game changer. It is a process of regaining true empowerment. Once sufficient inner work has been completed ~ a new foundation is prepared ~ a new house can be built.

Though loved ones may be near and a source of great encouragement, truly I tell you, this is something once having gone through it that only you will understand ~ only you can do ~ you will only have yourself to rely on as the healer to your healing.

I trust that when all is said and done I will look back and see this as a brief interlude on my path → although it doesn’t feel so brief → but in its larger truth it has been but a moments time → a time to heal → I trust in my full healing and walk the bridge into my Freedom.

I encourage you to in your own unique way surf within yourself to see what is truly there. This includes all judgements of Self and others, beliefs, parameters of thought, emotional states, fears → these deep waters are exactly what I have been facing and remodeling → it continues as I am constantly bombarded with the awareness of my each and every thought and my contributing emotions ~ until all that is left within me is the pure stillness and sanctified wholeness that I am and that you are.

∴I pray your evolving procession be filled with Grace and your knowings be Great. May your march be strong∴

If you find yourself in a healing urgency on whatever level it may be, I hope this blog post and poem will serve to soothe your mind, body, emotions, and Soul. You are not alone. Myself and many a kindred spirit have gone through this personal transformation ~ which is on going.

Truly brave are the ones who traverse these turbulent inner waters → whether thrown into it as I was (probably due to the fact that I ignored the signposts and promptings from all my senses and Higher Self) or courageously intersect these waters as a conscious choice for ones own betterment.

Our evolution is our evolution and one way or another we must face it → face to face.

◊May we all be blessed and walk with steps of Grace as we embark further and further into our Greatest flowering and maturation◊



⇒Healing ~ bringing forth the Light and Love within

 A clearing out stage that  dismantles and removes contradictory energies held within that don’t correspond to  wholeness  ⇐


Here is my take on the process:

Prior to accessing our highest powerful transcending abilities ~ we need to transmute lower level vibrations ~  via a self observation process where we make sure we have fully acknowledged in truth what is going on within us that is rumbling restless waters. The identification is the first application of entering our truth as we heal ourselves. Otherwise we are adrift. So, let us own what we are experiencing, acknowledging it, feeling it (even if uncomfortable). Peer into it as deeply as possible so that it unravels in conscious awareness and is seen in the light for what it is. No judgement, No blame, No shame, No nothing except pure identification with it as it is acknowledged and accepted ~ wrap it in wings of tender unconditional love. It took me a while to get to this point ~ as everything was exploding all at once and for a while I was totally submerged in it ~ once this  initial “drowning”  stage had gone on for a while I was able to even if little by little raise my head above the waters and actually have some reflection on it. It is a process and for me the drowning stage meant survival and did not merit conscious assessment as how to come to terms with it as this stage doesn’t include it ~ it was more of an initial adjustment and tending to my physical body more than anything else.

Once some realizations pop up and  has our attention and we claim its ownership ~ we then can move more within and see how this patterning has been detrimental to our growth, evolution, and happiness to say the least ~ we then become more and more aware of how we are feeling and being while simultaneously seeing this is our property to tend to and is something within us and not determined or brought out from any outside influence.

Next we can then aim to make a conscious God centered choice ~ and when the moment arises ~ which it will (continuously) ~ we can witness how well and thus how far we have come and still need to go via our responses, thoughts, emotions, actions, speech, etc….I have witnessed how systematic and addictive my thoughts, emotions, responses, etc…are and then I do my best to slow down and become conscious to create an astute and more advanced choice.  

As we become more skilled with this we can release worn out baggage and exchange it for a Higher State of Frequency Vibration.  The ebb and flow of continuous states of Creator waves we co create with will eventually wash out the old stuck habitual injurious patterning ~ cleaning away and paving the road for you and I to be at our most magnificent  fully realized sovereign Self and thus living as such.

As we continue to make a conscious choice to choose higher light thought patterns, emotions, views, etc… where our actions and speech are also  in concert with our heart and Soul we make great progress in the “deleting of old files.” It takes much practice until it is automatic ~ and it is over and over again as layers are eroded ~ then new one’s appear that also need to be released. It can be overwhelming with such intensity of awareness of what and how much lay buried within that is brought to the light ~ however, this in my experience is the letting go process.


Gratitude to the Divine

Let us offer up praise to the Divine for blessing us and gifting us. We have the internal ability to become self aware,  ~  thus, we have the resourcefulness within to heal ourselves. To create, to live a life of freedom…

I would like to offer my deepest thankfulness to L’Aura Pleiadian ~ The Queen of Light ~ for being my rock through this process and now. I truly don’t know where I would have been without Her Blessed healing helping me get through. Her Eternal Love ~ Light ~ Wisdom ~ and Exceptional Grace  has been instrumental in my healing and provided me with great strength and fortitude to carry on. I am Deeply Grateful and offer up my Highest Praise. Additionally, Her wisdom teachings have fostered great insights into the truth of who I am, who we all are, to Universal Oneness, and heart space opening. My Deepest Love Offering to YOU Beloved QOL!

Click the link below to find out more and follow Her on Facebook:

New Divine Humanity

In Addition, I have to thank my boyfriend Steve Weiss and our beautiful cat Samantha Pearl, who also stood by me and offered up encouragement and love which provided me with a great source of comfort.


♥The Heart♥

Where All directions Meet

The Heart ~ +where all directions meet +

“As we take the one seat and develop a meditative attention, the heart presents itself naturally for healing. The grief we have carried for so long, from pains and dashed expectations and hopes, arises. We grieve for our past traumas and present fears, for all of the feelings we never dared experience consciously. Whatever shame or unworthiness we have within us arises—much of our early childhood and family pain, the mother and father wounds we hold, the isolation, any past abuse, physical or sexual, are all stored in the heart. Jack Engler, a Buddhist teacher and psychologist at Harvard University, has described meditation practice as primarily a practice of grieving and of letting go. At most of the spiritual retreats I have been a part of, nearly half of the students are working with some level of grief: denial, anger, loss, or sorrow. Out of this grief work comes a deep renewal.”

~ Jack Kornfield from “Healing the Heart”


May we always listen and attune to our blessed heart as the compass and steering wheel in our life


℘Let us allow our tears to be washed away through the empowered state of being we are now entering℘


⊆The Reflection Pool⊇

< the Reflection pool >


We close the physical eyes to see with our inner eyes ~ looking within we start to notice, experience, integrate, and harmonize with that which we are naturally ~ step by step ~ familiarizing ourselves within ourselves ~ we hear, see, and know our truth ~ our Wisdom speaks to us.

The physical world and others don’t extrapolate our sageness. Our astuteness and knowledge stem from knowing ourselves within ~ deep meditation ~ quiet ~ stillness ~ reflection ~ bare us to step up and breakthrough self perceived restrictions.  Continued dives in the reflection pool offer correctness of perspective and action (or non action) relevant to any life situation, and thus this internal wisdom guidance, when applied, sets us free ~ the wings that carry us to our deliverance ~ our sacred healing.


Becoming like the Buddha ~ *Seeing and Hearing Within*

With eyes closed ~ yet more open then when physically open ~ we begin. We begin to transcend ~ we enter steps onto the bridge to All ~ to our Freedom.

ςStep By Stepς

Our inner conscious awareness opens us to what lay within us ~ if we can embrace it without restriction nor denial ~ then we can love it to death ~ actually love it as a form of acceptance and acknowledgement ~ which through this act of lovingly servicing it wastes it away ~ love becomes the healing.

Then, after practice, continued application, and familiarity with this inner alert being state ~ it eventually transfers this truth knowing to our opened physical eyes ~ as what we see and experience outwardly ~ speaking back to us the truth.

This heightened Godly way of interacting with the world (first recognized as our inwardly Godly world) ~ provides the steps for us to walk upon the bridge to all ~ to our Freedom. 

 May we all transcend and walk the bridge that leads to our ultimate Freedom.


If you are experiencing anything in your life ~ in your bodies ~ mental, emotional, physical, or spiritual ~ that needs healing ~ then this is for you (and me) to rise within ourselves the ability to transcend. Let us clear our holy vessel.



Ω I trust in my ability to heal myself

Ω I allow my body to heal itself (replace “body” with appropriate area if focus of healing intention is other than body)

Ω All I need is within me

ΩAs I remain centered  within myself I naturally attract externally what is aligned with my healing

Ω I stand in my power and truth

Ω I speak my truth

Ω I am the Healer to the healed


The art of medicine consists in amusing the patient while nature cures the disease

~ Voltaire


Healing Miracles of Jesus


    • “Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the people. News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed; and he healed them.” ~ Matthew 4:23-24
    • “Jesus called his twelve disciples to him and gave them authority to drive out impure spirits and to heal every disease and sickness…Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give.” ~ Matthew 10:1-8
    • “On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” ~ Mark 2:17
    • “Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness.” ~ Matthew 9:35
    • “He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.” ~ Mark 5:34
    • “One day Jesus was teaching, and Pharisees and teachers of the law were sitting there. They had come from every village of Galilee and from Judea and Jerusalem. And the power of the Lord was with Jesus to heal the sick. Some men came carrying a paralyzed man on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus. When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus. When Jesus saw their faith, he said, “Friend, your sins are forgiven.” The Pharisees and the teachers of the law began thinking to themselves, “Who is this fellow who speaks blasphemy? Who can forgive sins but God alone?” Jesus knew what they were thinking and asked, “Why are you thinking these things in your hearts? Which is easier: to say, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up and walk’? But I want you to know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins.” So he said to the paralyzed man, “I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.” Immediately he stood up in front of them, took what he had been lying on and went home praising God. Everyone was amazed and gave praise to God. They were filled with awe and said, “We have seen remarkable things today.” ~ Luke 5:17-24
    • “And a woman was there who had been crippled by a spirit for eighteen years. She was bent over and could not straighten up at all. When Jesus saw her, he called her forward and said to her, “Woman, you are set free from your infirmity.” Then he put his hands on her, and immediately she straightened up and praised God.” ~ Luke 13:11-13
    • “One Sabbath, when Jesus went to eat in the house of a prominent Pharisee, he was being carefully watched. There in front of him was a man suffering from abnormal swelling of his body. Jesus asked the Pharisees and experts in the law, “Is it lawful to heal on the Sabbath or not?” But they remained silent. So taking hold of the man, he healed him and sent him on his way. Then he asked them, “If one of you has a childor an ox that falls into a well on the Sabbath day, will you not immediately pull it out?” And they had nothing to say.” ~ Luke 14:1-6
    • “Stretch out your hand to heal and perform signs and wonders through the name of your holy servant Jesus.” After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly.” ~ Acts 4:30-31
    • “There he found a man named Aeneas, who was paralyzed and had been bedridden for eight years. “Aeneas,” Peter said to him, “Jesus Christ heals you. Get up and roll up your mat.” Immediately Aeneas got up.” ~ Acts 9:33-34
    • “You know what has happened throughout the province of Judea, beginning in Galilee after the baptism that John preached – how God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and power, and how he went around doing good and healing all who were under the power of the devil, because God was with him.” ~ Acts 10:37-38
    • “As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!” When he saw them, he said, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed. One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked him—and he was a Samaritan. Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? Has no one returned to give praise to God except this foreigner?” Then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.” ~ Luke 12:17-19
    • “While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.” After saying this, he spit on the ground, made some mud with the saliva, and put it on the man’s eyes. “Go,” he told him, “wash in the Pool of Siloam” (this word means “Sent”). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing. His neighbors and those who had formerly seen him begging asked, “Isn’t this the same man who used to sit and beg?” Some claimed that he was. Others said, “No, he only looks like him.” But he himself insisted, “I am the man.” “How then were your eyes opened?” they asked. He replied, “The man they call Jesus made some mud and put it on my eyes. He told me to go to Siloam and wash. So I went and washed, and then I could see.” ~ John 9:5-11
    • “As soon as they left the synagogue, they went with James and John to the home of Simon and Andrew. Simon’s mother-in-law was in bed with a fever, and they immediately told Jesus about her. So he went to her, took her hand and helped her up. The fever left her and she began to wait on them. That evening after sunset the people brought to Jesus all the sick and demon-possessed. The whole town gathered at the door, and Jesus healed many who had various diseases. He also drove out many demons, but he would not let the demons speak because they knew who he was.” ~ Mark 1:29-34
  • “While Jesus was still speaking, someone came from the house of Jairus, the synagogue leader. “Your daughter is dead,” he said. “Don’t bother the teacher anymore.” Hearing this, Jesus said to Jairus, “Don’t be afraid; just believe, and she will be healed.” When he arrived at the house of Jairus, he did not let anyone go in with him except Peter, John and James, and the child’s father and mother. Meanwhile, all the people were wailing and mourning for her. “Stop wailing,” Jesus said. “She is not dead but asleep.” They laughed at him, knowing that she was dead. But he took her by the hand and said, “My child, get up!” Her spirit returned, and at once she stood up. Then Jesus told them to give her something to eat. Her parents were astonished, but he ordered them not to tell anyone what had happened.” ~ Luke 8:49-56


ϖOur Souls have waited a long time (many lifetimes) to make their acquaintance with us. Let us begin.

We make conscious contact with our Higher dimensional Self as we partake as co creators of our healingϖ


⇑Transcending⇑: Bridge to Freedom

Dares of the Uncommon Kind

⊕Healing ~ transcend and walk the bridge to Freedom⊕


If possible please light a candle to set the tone as we call forth Blessed Creator Light in honor and praise  ~ our Sacred Divine Self  ~ our Truest inherent Self ~ To deepen our connection with ~ that we have slipped away from consciously and now desire to regain conscious unification with.


Light Prelude

Light Prelude

to include and conclude

to renew

the pursuer and the pursued

lost in the multitude

found in great solitude ~ holy servitude

imbued ~ surrendered to

light ~ carry me through


Honor and Praise to the Light

Great All ~ embracing

Infinite Light


Creator of All

Divine Source

Light Eternal

Blessed One

The One

The One of All

 from the One ~ my Soul Divine

from whence you came ~ show me mine

grant thee entrance into thy Holy realm

pleasures and treasures

within your vast untold measure

come like a zephyr ~ to me devour

bring me closure ~ all together

I have been smitten

 atmospheric pressure

months ~ all weather

a great lesson

running ~ missing ~ messing

no direction

pull together and remove forever

no questions

laying down of weapons

complete decompression

submergence in the Presence

seeing perfection in all directions

an intercession

 Holy Spirit ~ bring forth now

my celebratory procession

from up on high

tree of heaven

my blessing ~ my destiny

nothing between us

I meet you

in the dwelling chamber

 my inner recesses

I come to you as a little child

in my innocence

 to know myself as Light

we have waited so long to reunite

In You I have found me

the One with me all along

I have listened to it in the birdsong

in my headstrong ~ so wrong

I looked here and beyond ~ a move on ~ a carry on

lifelong ~ so long an endless marathon ~ come on

now ~ I come upon

like a church key, fruit tree, being carefree

to unlock the mysteries

to drink from your holy sea

on bended knees

I come to thee

hearken Great Divine ~ Love the Holy Seer

be all ears ~ now to hear

be all heart ~ now to tend ~ comprehend

to befriend ~ a best friend ~ a God send

up to speed ~ now to succeed

the mystical moment

commend ~ the hour to transcend

it is the end

each day must

end the end

when all was a dead end

from the end ~ begins again

to ascend

how was I to know

from riding winds

that I AM

the spotless lamb of God ~ a hologram

I Am that I Am


Healing ~ the bridge to Freedom

⊕Healing poem to transcend and walk the bridge to All⊕

This is an honest look into my healing journey spanning  around 6 months ~ though a day and night has felt long ~ I surrender to knowing the question is answered as I hold to no questions. The more I can let it be the more I am healed. This includes taking inspired action to co participate as an active voice in my healing (i.e. eating healthy, taking supplements, prayer, worship, fresh air and sunshine, and continuing the journey inward) , however, I have learned to not aim to control it and trust in its perfect healing.

∴Whatever you may be going through, I pray this serves as hope, encouragement, and inspiration for you to carry on ~ to transcend ~ and walk upon the bridge to Freedom∴


⇑Transcending⇑: Bridge to Freedom

Dares of the Uncommon

Healing ~ the bridge to Freedom

In the final hours

I fall to my feet

a answered prayer

 I have asked of Thee

unburden the darken ~ the harden

bring my body back ~ healed

fresh like morning dew

baptize me ~ river jordan

lead me

upon my mountain top

 I am found

crowned ~ blessed ~ standing upon sacred ground

viewing a new world

sights and sounds I never knew

like a bird I take flight ~ an overview

  mind body soul spirit

given angel wings

half a year cast me down

surround me now

to flourish and abound

as the certainty remains certain



coming in to lay me down

to rise me up

when the inner work be through

my come through

I fly with the eagle

to a new avenue

heaven ~ a horseshoe

for my being tried and true

Light and Love bringing to life

my plea

please ~ carefree ~ upon my body temple tree

to be high above

visit with me

anoint me sacred dove

 to be the leaves swaying

being creation

with out explaining

a drop in the water ~ the ocean ~ wholeness to see

a cosmic jubilee ~ holy ~ set free

light for shade ~ godly ~ let the horses run free

the healing ~ the journey

stormy thorny

mommy and daddy ~ where are you?

read me a bedtime story

faith ~ allegory ~ I have no reason

months of a season ~ curtains closed ~ a dead rose

 hold on and let go ~ let go and hold on

crawling on exasperation

reaching nowhere

blank are the stares

I must be dying

my body not feeling right

not acting right

everything to rewrite

I am here, yet I have disappeared

all is gone

only silence to dwell on

 finally reducing the equation

 to letting it be on an occasion

slow ~ slowly the dam breaks

what runs out I must face

strapped into no place

there is no escape

accepting the brakes ~ the heavy weights

head on, although displaced

I begin to awake

free ~ building a foundation

there is no fix for this

all I have known is completely unknown

no light time zone

no window to see out of

when in darkness you die ~ gradually

the soul’s agenda sets the table

doesn’t matter if your willing or able

I go on excavation ~ internally

Cain or Abel ~ good and bad ~ heavy are labels

when no crops grow ~ nothing to sow

as the waters came ~ the plow to the field

all was to yield

 faith, trust, gratitude

here go the wheels

from out in left field it becomes revealed


infield ~ becomes the landing field

seeds being planted

 setting the stage

my emancipation

steady the light

I heard my invitation

calling me outright

cleansing ~ a process

lower self  becomes sacrifice

rolling of dice ~ fools paradise


there is no asking price

it is all goodbye

with no flotation device

through days and months so long

I was becoming reborn

darkness vaporizing

misty ~ but not as thick

realizations bubbling ~ I could not miss

truth lay bare ~ I took a dare

 a dim light hallway ~ voices screaming scared

I went on hiatus from the world

cast into the underworld ~ the real world

time crept on

nothing seemed to exist ~ not even a word

having to invent the rhyme ~ without a dime

signs ~ divine ~ nothing in line

enclosed in my own shrine

suddenly, after much lament

a dragging on that became a run on

then became a come upon

could this be? ~ my break through?

are the birds singing again?

even if faint ~ I will have a listen or two

 a chain begins to break ~ releasing the pain

beyond all planes ~ I began to regain

now and then

repent, amend, intense ~ no pretend

building up aware ~ nothing to compare

ascending seemed like a nightmare

ahead ~ to somewhere

sun moon help me to transcend

miles walked ~ now I must fly again

hope lay forward ~ healing ~ up goes the curtain

 burdens lifted ~ so speaks the waters virgin

an emergence ~ an add on ~ a bring on

a knock on ~ a take on ~ a walk on

the land ~ springing life again

a return ~ a turn ~ darshan

flowers awakened in the garden

a turning sermon

healing ~ god living being doing

blooming after much review

losing to win ~ the light shone again

through a place of concealment

I have become learned

through confirming

I have become confirmed

through disheartening

my heart affirmed

through the despondency

a higher spirit rides

inside the guide

a change of tides

bride and groom arise wise

silenced are the cries

my Soul ~ to speak to me ~ to see

the unheard to be heard

the within to be noticed

nothing disguised

what was inside

if be of divide, was to die

through the pain ~ my tears endless rain

 unraveling goes the cord

evolving ~ holy center ~ to obtain

Oh, my dearest and Mighty Lord

when it felt too much to bear

I cried out in despair

 please not another day like this

spiraling bottomless abyss

I must meet You ~ kissing me ~ sweet upon my lips

holding ~ even if slightly ~ upon a wish

there is nothing ~ I have no list

so much I have dismissed

I felt as if on trial

weary to walk another mile

becoming purified ~ through sacred fire

 slow a backstroke ~ a flat tire

   Grace’s crowning fire

in surrender ~ I climbed higher

sometimes a door briefly opened

then shut quick once again

pain and chains over and over again

why the night so long? ~ the day so short?

why the night tainting the daylight?

through not a moment more

Victory and I to meet ~ could it be? ~ an opened door

God in my heart ~ the key

 green grass ~ awaiting a green light

my heart take flight ~ see me right

nothing is normal

fits the mood this night

the day too speaks this outright

somehow through might

through this plight

I said yes ~ to moments more

through aloneness

a conscious wave consistently hit

bits and pieces ~ like a puzzle began to fit

beyond all the charades

by going deep ~ deep into my soul

a Oneness began to grow

I became contained within

 attuning ferociously

my inner voice

the lion’s roar ~ the lioness rapport

she is here, over there ~ she is everywhere

I remember her well from childhood

 reclaimed now is she

standing right in front of me

where she stood before

crops in the field ~ restored

she has been wanting to speak with me

where have you been? she asks of me

a boat with no oar won’t get far

come, let us sail

beyond ~ the stars

where truth is the plough

the know how

bringing her to the ear to hear

here and now

her knowing ~ put on your horns

the sacred cow

her life sustaining milk ~ Mother is Goddess

our Father too ~ all knowing and kind ~ remover of blinds

through my letting go

I receive the promise

written in the stars

cosmic, Gnostic

unleashed in the breath

my healing tonic

I continue on

providence not forgotten

though a moment be weary

I lay it upon the feet of thy glory

 if screams speak at fears door

I scare them out the back door

my faith in Self to choose

renewed ~ great be the news

like the sun that rises

leaving darkness behind


open becomes the air

now a life so rare

 rise the lotus from mud

beauty it declares

patterns ~ thoughts and emotions

becoming more aware

“Meditation is the dissolution of thoughts

in Eternal awareness or pure consciousness

without objectification

knowing without thinking, merging finitude in infinity.”

said Voltaire

true going within

leaves you with nothing to wear ~ bare

I have learned to honor and love myself

releasing beliefs that lead to nowhere

my heart to dwell

cast, I am willing ~ its magical spell

to that which is parallel

if it not be of sacred divine

  release it all

let it all go

a baker with some dough

now has somewhere to go

this mess has been all mine

I have had to walk the line

with steps of faith

this assignment

I have become totally redefined

through the illusions

I have seen what lay beneath

it must be cleared out ~ to not repeat

delete ~ be humble

incomplete is obsolete

I die to unify at Christ’s feet

though nothing to stand firm on

I have found inner equilibrium

to rest upon

this mess has been all mine

the mind must stop its story line

the emotions to be spirits of wine

to have grapes on the vine

that which I sent away

I now recollect

that which I engaged in

I have left behind

 the old tracks


to make a new house my home

to make my body healthy and strong

to open my heart to all

and All is Divine

as the air begins to lift

the heaviness dispelled

as symptoms disappear

and clarity is clearer then clear

I have freed myself

new becomes the year

 like the sailor sails on

getting out of the way

so the true Self

waters the way

the nothing turned to something

 the something turned back to nothing

I feel momentum

a buzzing, a coming, continued trusting

 my path

I take steps

my best

to be wrapped in holy dress

dares of the uncommon kind

have lead me

to where I anchor the line

to presence, the Presence of mine

though the fire just a flame

I fan it well

each flame a cell

giving nothing a name

knowing Presence shall lead me

to my wishing well

on bent knees ~ bethel

I am lead to the holy place

where all becomes a farewell

signs now

the stairwell ~ up

the mother cell ~ the father cell

this personal journey

the carousel

celestial ringing in the air

what fear could still be there?

doesn’t matter

next stop

the poets pen

begin again

a new chapter

before and after

the cleansing, the purging, the inner journeying

has been my ladder

nothing matters

so whats so ever

it be

at all

is all

for all

will be answered


⊕May we all open to the Healing Love Light and allow it to awaken us to our perfect Self and perfect health⊕


Great Blessings of abundant health!

Grace upon your healing journey

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