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∝Perfect Pain∝
Inspiration:
The inspiration behind this blog post is to encourage anyone who has experienced the dark night of the soul ~ or will ~ to feel as sense of encouragement and that you are not alone in your journey.
The Healing
How does one even explain this? Not sure. I am certainly not an expert on the subject, however, I can share my journey in the event it may be helpful to you or someone you know. I have put into words via a poem the closest I am able to pick up and describe what my experience into the darkness was like. Although the purification process is only complete when it is complete, there does seem to be for some a designated amount of time where darkness precipitates as a companion.
Darkness becomes highlighted so that one may face their shadow self. The shadow self is all that lays within ones consciousness that is not the Light and truth of ones own nature, yet seems to dictate ones beliefs, actions, speech ~ all areas of life and presides as a dominant force killing and covering up the life force energy. It is all the emotions, thoughts, behavioral habits, judgements of self and others, pretty much anything ego based. What needs to be rectified wholly is brought to the light of ones awareness so that it is healed, cleansed, and released.
It takes a lot to acknowledge them, sit with them ~ as they belong to your greatest fears. It hits you at the core and this is why it is you facing you. It has a personal aspect tailored to what each of us need to heal within , however, I have seen that a common across the board aspect is that it feels beyond alone, as one feels a complete absence of God ~ that is not possible but on the experiential level it sure does.
I hadn’t planned on blogging again on this topic as last February I blogged about it and shared my personal experience. However, I felt guided to present this.
Be Encouraged
I hope this will serve as encouragement to anyone that is either seemingly forced to face or chooses to face darkness deep within them so it may be resolved in the truth of the light.
Before I “suddenly” experienced my depth into the dark abyss, I “happened” to read someone posting on the dark night of the soul and commenting on what great strength of fortitude it took to stand and say “I made it through the other side.” I thought wow she must have been through a lot as her words were so powerful. Now I understand.
Collective Evolution
Perhaps, most of us, one day, sooner or later ~ will journey into the depths of our being to bring great healing and light to dark aspects within us that have accumulated over many lifetimes. This darkness, left unhealed, are the areas in our life we feel stuck, stagnant, and walk in miss steps over and over until they are faced. These blockages promote sadness, depression, anger, rage, disempowerment, etc….all the incorrect perceptions and behaviors that inhibit how we truly desire to live our lives. The darkness is like clouds hiding the sun. The sun within us.
If you have gone through this then you know exactly what I mean. Each situation is varied and different, however, some elements remain consistent. If you are going through this, feel free to reach out to me and I will be happy to help you in whatever way I can. It ain’t pretty and it ain’t fun and it will take all of who you are to make it through. You will! You alone must do it, no one can do it for you ~ futile to even try ~ and this becomes highly apparent. It seems to be a “natural” part of our evolution to bring us to the next level where we can, once facing all it presents, live a life closer to that which we always dreamed of.
Blessings of clearing out the darkness and living in the Light!
Blessings of Awakening!
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∝Perfect Pain∝
Perfect Pain
the catalyst for change
dark night of the soul
get through
become whole
one late August day
when all seemed right
all changed
in a moment
caught in plight
darkness came knocking
on my door that day
that stayed and stayed
darker than night
stealing
like a theif in the night
I was stripped
everything ripped
Perfect Pain
the catalyst for change
dark night of the soul
get through
become whole
when the pain set in
nothing mattered anymore
nothing else existed
a blanket of darkness
a head swimming
a body laying still
everything going nowhere
scared beyond scared
I left the world for a while
months of going within
holding onto nothing
healing on a prayer and a whim
nothing in the world was the same
I was going under
sinking
not knowing how to swim
Perfect Pain
the catalyst for change
dark night of the soul
get through
become whole
no words, no company, no world
knew what I was going through
how do you explain
not knowing if your living or dying
not sure of anything
no thoughts coming through
all was blank, distorted
only darkness to face
Perfect Pain
dark night of the soul
darkness on the table
I am dying
all is unstable
only stillness within
held any ground with me
this was all I craved
and any peace before me
I went away for a while
thrown into a fiery pit
to face myself
in the dark
month after month
crawling for air
all was upside down
how could I repair?
No God resort
darkness too thick to come forth
just me
living blind
hoping to see
all changed
that late August day
all was gone
vacant inside of me
all that was known
became the unknown
completely alone
no light would shine
even the day was dark too
all became far away
nothing else remained
except my pain
I couldn’t even speak
all was shattered
there was no center
everything scattered
change became the master
Perfect Pain
dark night of the soul
my life so rearranged
dying each day
all I could do
was somehow get through
now more than a year later
I must contribute to say
holy I looked
into the inner face
nearer now
to walk with my heart
given a fresh start
though the Divine seemed nowhere to be found
behind the scenes
they watched and blessed me all around
Perfect Pain
brought me to my knees
this was the change
to help me see
what lay inside of me
Perfect Pain
I don’t need you anymore
now I live
my life
closer to the wordless heart
that beats and lives
within the circle
that never departs
Perfect Pain
your day is done
I have been taken
shaken
from the wake
now
to be awake
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Blessings of Healing!
Blessings of living in your light!
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